Greetings.

I am back. 

It is 2013. I guess you missed my 2012 life story.

2012, I meet someone. That someone pretty much always there for me, but even though, that someone lives far away from me.. mentally and emotionally that someone always there for me. But for me to continue the relationship with that someone is impossible. It is outrages, it is ridiculous, it is impossible. So.. to end this thing with that person, i need a strength. 

2012, I am finished with my studies, with my diploma for 2 years and a half. I do not regret everything. I did my best, i know i played a lot, i know if i work hard a little bit more i will get a better result, but i am satisfied with my exam result. 

2012, I got a crush with this one person for a long time. They say, if you like a person for more than 6 months? Means you are in love with them. So..i guess, i probably in love with this person? Or maybe i was just confused with my own feelings. But being a coward like i always do, i just keep my mouth shut and buried my feelings for this particular person because i know, somehow or somewhat it is much better that way.

2012, I lost my grandma. She gone to a better place. One year after her last operation on 14 January 2011, she leave us on 14 January 2012. I saw her took her a last breath, and after that she just went silent. Everyone was crying, including me. Before they take her away to prepare for her funeral, i gave her one last kiss on her forehead. I guess, it is better that way because seeing her suffer like that, it is hard for me to take.

2012, I gained weight but i am still short. I still look the same. 

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2013, I need a money for my studies. So, my cousin and i went to an open interview and i got the job but unfortunately my cousin did not got it. I worked as Educational Facilitator, E.F. I thought that work is about helping the lecturer or anything, but i was wrong. Turns out, i was in marketing department. My job is to find students which is suck because most of the time i spend my time calling people and see people and persuade people so they want to study at the college.

2013, I quit my old job and i found a new one. It is more relaxing and near my place.

2013, I said before i have a crush on someone? Now, i plan to move on from that someone. Why? Because i cannot take it anymore. It is too hurt for me to see that person is in love with someone else.  It is damn hard to forget about those memories i spend with that person, because everyone around me keep on asking about that person. I heard people mention that person's name everywhere, and it is too hard for me to forget about it.

2013, I want to continue my studies at UPSI but unfortunately i did not get the interview. So my only hope for now is UTHM. I have to wait this July.

2013, It is half of the year, i do not think i do anything useful these days. I have been heartbroken three times, and i think i am getting weaker everyday. So mostly i spend time writing a story and improve my guitar skill. Not to forget, i bought a new laptop and spend my time on the internet and drown myself with my game's missions. 
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So, i think i have summarize my whole life story until now. 

• Work : Yep, i am.
• Continue my study : Yep, i will
• Status : I am single
• Mood : Bored

Thank you for spending your time reading my boring post. :)